Thursday, January 29, 2009


So many ups and downs...

Today my mom had an "episode." She was just screaming and it's impossible to comfort her. And since it's not possible to make sense of what she is saying, it's hard to know how to help her. We just sing and pray and try to ease her anxiety.

Praying for wisdom to know how to best help my mom.

Praying for an understanding for what she's trying to communicate.

Praying for peace.

Praying for God's timing.

Praying we are all learning whatever lessons God intends for us to learn through this.

Friday, January 23, 2009


I have to apologize for not updating my blog sooner. It has been way too long, I know that. And I know that some people actually do check it to see what's been happening with my mom--thank you for that and I apologize for dropping the ball on my blog. The road has been long and has been filled with ups and downs. I came to Connecticut before Christmas and I am still here. Though my mom's body is like a shell, the Lord continues to sustain her life. Even though my mom is a strong woman and a fighter, I know her life is sustained right now by God alone, not by her will and it's for an eternal purpose. And the Lord in His infinite wisdom is choosing to wait to take her home.

The last few days my mom hasn't eaten much at all, it is hard even to wake her to eat anything. And she has not been responsive or really able to talk at all. So it could be soon now that the Lord takes her home. That's what we've been praying...that the Lord will take her peacefully and quickly. And trust me, that's not an easy prayer to pray. But the more I meditate on things eternal and see how frail life is and how much pain my mom is in, the more I long for her to be in heaven with her Savior. I believe the Lord is using this time to prepare me as much as He is preparing my mom.

I've been praying a verse from Colossians each night for my mom before she goes to bed...that she would be strengthened with all might, fully pleasing Him being fruitful in every good work, according to His glorious power, who has rescued us from darkness and qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in the light.

Please pray the same for me, that I would walk in the Spirit, being kind and gracious to my family and that my longing to be home in CA would not be too overwhelming.

Until next time, faithful readers!